Messages to TUSC Plymouth

The first message is from the 27 Oct 2020 - to a comrade of mine that is involved with the Trade Union and Socialist Coalition in Plymouth - we met during the occupy movement and I hope that I consider him a friend .... But who knows in this crazy age of the charlatan ..... Of gaslighting and smoke , mirrors , cloaks and daggers .....

" Yo man ..... How the devil are your domesticated tribulations you utter rapscallion 😇....what's your jazz like at the moment ? Just wanted to remention this X Good Evening , I do hope that you are fairing well through all of these current absurdities...... I do hope you will excuse the message out of the proverbial blue .... But I am getting in touch with a few of the interesting individuals in my Plymouth contact list and so wanted to send you a little notice that as of Monday next week I will have a little 'acess to Art and Design course ' running here in Plymouth . Based at the training facility at 24 Stonehouse street ....a six week course with funded places available for anyone you know on low income or U.C .... A great little intro into using creative tendency to circumvent these weird times .... As a therapeutic outlet and a viable economic tool , personally I am calling it a first class course in rebellion ... And there is actually an accredited educational award to be gained from completion .... Please do feel free to put anyone you know that might be interested in touch with me directly or via Shekinah .....very best wishes and big hugs . Stay safe etc X "

This second message was sent on the 05/ 03/2023 

 " Good Morning to you R.

I consider it noteworthy ...that I have not heard from you regarding my current legal position i e. Intentionally coming for some demonstrably dead wood within the ranks of this cities administrative capacity .

One might consider - since our original meeting all those years ago during occupy, that your apparent vying for a desk job - might not carry the merit that my own bloody determined fighting to simply maintain a little creative integrity - here in this funny little city 

That you have foolishly pooled a property interest in , despite my advise to the contrary - a man I have heard say " but I've got to think of my family first " ....

I can't help but wonder sir , I am sorry to say ....whether perhaps your moral compass may have become compromised to some degree 

I do hope that you and the family are indeed well 

And despite a wry look in your direction at present , I do look forward to catching up soon ....

The Original Arts Hole Vs Plymouth city council and the broader support and education services -the culmination of a ten year legal battle against one of the funniest little local authorities in the land

Exhibition and workshop series 2023 

A fine example of why it's probably better to just have a functioning complaints and accountability procedure x

Oh p.s # did a cross dressing socialist just poach my girlfriend ? 

.....🙄 Politics 😤 " 

But of a change in pace I guess ....what's the pandemic fine to us as a people ....jeeezuz 

to" know thyself ".....especially in a gaslit age like this

 

Ive been called many things over the course of my lifetime , some of them hurt more than others .... The worst is when it's a silent accusation , or an air of gossip based on misunderstanding ...especially if that then proves to be detrimental to a relationship either romantic or professional ....

I don't mind admitting that I've been beyond rattled of late ... More so than usual ...I know right ! 

Nervous breakdowns are a common hazard in this line of work - a little burnout through stress or heartbreak seems to be just part and parcel of it ... So it's important to know that ....

one , it's generally relatively short lived ...although compounded PTSD can be a real issue ( but again all the more reason to know your limits and who you are even when teetering on the extremities of those limits ) .the old saying that all things are temporary is definitely true - including your temperaments and states of mind .

And , two , you know how to sure up a little when things get weird ....

An experienced artist like an experienced psychonaught know how to traverse such tricky and weird waters ...." Aw yeah , realities bending a bit here ...better accommodate for it " 

And things are often weird when you look at stuff with a broad perspective the kind of broad perspective that only a true understanding of the terrain can encapsulate ....

So during my most recent existential crisis , a remarkable combination of heartbreak , stress of an impending exhibition and a high court legal battle ... I have had to take a few weeks just to ' sure up ' so to speak ... 

No mean feat in this gaslit nation - second guess yourself at every turn .

Shoukd I vote for labour or Tory ?

Leave or remain ?

Buy a house or emigrate ?

Take the vaccine or abstain ?

....am I an international artisan or a mad shut in ? ( This one is definitely dependent on time of year ) 

There is of course a  historic and cultural prevalence to the nature of gossip and story telling , at what point it becomes frivolous storytelling or malicious hearsay is difficult to know ...

So when you think about it , kids really display the tribal basics of the societal dynamic in Thier play and social structures ...even kids at a very young age demonstrate an ability to form packs with evident hierarchy - there are leaders and followers there are independent kids , needy kids .... Kids that want to be in charge , kids that want to join in and kids that want to do Thier own thing .... 

Now I've been thinking recently about , well, about many things .... The bain of spending so much time wandering around on your own or spending extended periods isolated and painting .

One of them is just my little reflections on the word gaslighting - 

So when we are in school , it's very common to find social bonds and shifts occuring - young siblings are terrible for it ...before they ascribe the sensation of guilt to it , but it's more fluid in the school play ground without that emotional ' family ' binding structure .

Kids fall in and out of favour with each other for tons of reasons - where they live , what car their parents drive , what trainers are cool , what video game consol is designed the greatest of all time for that particular Christmas , football teams ...even affiliations , think about it , really young boys in groups ostracize the female of the group and vice versa - boys are smelly and dirty - and girls only want to play with girly things - just as a typicality .

And even at this stage - that's gaslighting .

" We arent going to play with you because of your (gender ) " your gender has these undesirable characteristics .

If course the ostracized party is devastated , they stand there torn apart by their peers - wondering if maybe they do smell ? - maybe pink is a silly colour ? 

It's interesting to watch - of course it happens throughout child and adulthood too ...it's brutal out there - the artificial competition is fierce and observation would show that it's largely self generated, and perpetuates all the way up to fanatical hysteria and mob mentality - burning down the middle east for weapons of mass destruction or burning witches - you've got to nip it in the bud because that stuff , if it gets carried away , that stuff is dangerous on a historical level .... 

I've been having a lot of musings ( mostly via YouTube videos ) recently , which got a bit much in the end ...

Dating a narcissist - Are you a Narcissist - is your relationship toxic - what to do if you are discarded by a narcissist - going no contact with a narcissist - narcissistic personality disorders - borderline personality disorders - jeezus on and on it goes - so much of it completely contradictory - it's hard to know ....and I have been through this particular subject extensively in the past , when someone with Narcissistic personality disorder and stress induced manic tendency, accuses you yourself if being a narcissist....that can be one real gruelling , soul searching , constantly questioning nightmare ....

Thankfully , I got my fill of all of the you tube video analysis and therapy sessions and trauma recovery - thousands of videos ....some of them are actually quite helpful , but man there's a ton of shit out there too ....

Again , all the more reason to know yourself ...you can sift through and split up the unbridled opinions of embittered individuals and compare it to the actual experienced therapists with extensive experience and respected practices ...working from case loads - not simply statistics !

Upon reflection - I have considered this at length in the past and have given it dutiful contemplation over the past several weeks , I believe that every human being demonstrate both narcissistic and empathic tendencies , I think a well rounded human has too , to which degree each attribute is in terms of percentage ratios is of course different in each person ... But I believe they are always both present ...of course there are extremes and pathological levels of permanence ...

I think they are both , like all of our characteristics , viable to fluctuation too ....according to varying stimuli - I know personally I can demonstrate narcissistic tendency if I'm feeling competitive or defensive  for a mate ... If I am doing a public appearance I definitely prefer to feel that I look presentable and don't stink , it's part of a common courtesy as much as a desire to project an image - but image is important , especially a professional image ....or so we are told ( again I'm probably too much of an open book for my own good , but I find there are less things to worry about when you don't have to think about omissions made or erroneous details so there is definite overlap - but art should come from your life , right ?) 

A cacophony of thoughts .... 

And it's really un nerving too .... I mean if you are trying not to care about what people think , and you are doing your earnest to pretend that you don't care what they think ...about what you say , or what you paint ....but of course you've got to keep your customer satisfied , right ?  But paint and say what you feel and your customer will find you ....well that's a real stress if you need to make rent ! You need to eat ? You want to compete for a girls affections with some salaried insurance salesman ....so do you pander to the crowd , or do you do your own thing ? ....what even is your own thing ?...has anyone done it before ? Do I even know who I am to be able to determine what my own thing might be off the back of that phantom person ? 

Again , all the more reason to know thyself ....

If you ask yourself these questions , and the schoolyard mentality out there is asking those questions of you too, while offering opinion as to how they would do it and why you should join their club , clan , commune or cause  ...all loaded with societal expectations in its own right, there's a lot to think about ! 

So how the hell do you know yourself ? 

Away from all the noise , all the people and their causes and distractions ....

Breath 

Breath 

I am ....?

I am .... ?

I am in the woods , near some water , I'm listening to the sound of the big wind meeting the earth through the veil of leaves , branches and brush ....

I hear the birds , I feel the sun , I feel the tickle breeze ...the caress of the big wind ! 

I stand in a place where footsteps have trodden over milenia , I consider what the landscape looked like for my forbears , i consider their trials , their woes , their destinations ....I compare those to my own !

I wander home with muddy boots and wet socks , I stop a while to talk aloud with the animals if the field , the birds if the hedgerows and trees , I discuss my considerations for my species thoughts about their place in the food chain , I bud them farewell ....I get home with a renewed sense of appreciation for little comforts , for hot water , a hearty meal , a soft bed ..... Sometimes , a warm embrace ....

That's what helps me , inspires me , gives me a reason to work ...to paint ....to care for the purpose of the endeavour , to strive to be better through practice at all that I might undertake 

Well , who am I? 

Who am I  when I'm angry ? Who am I when I'm happy ? Who am I when I am sad ? Who am I when I'm depressed ? Who am I when I'm drunk , or just generally intoxicated ? .. does being hungry make a difference to any of these conditions ? Does being tired make a difference to any of these conditions ? 

What triggers these responses, how durable are they ?  , and how do I feel about the person I am when I'm in any of those states ? So the I am , the truest " I am " , would be the equilibrium of it, it should be a relatively stable state amid all of these peripheral points , an ideal physical and mental condition within a refined margin ....

Of course , every human has the capacity to exceed even the extremes of these states , catatonic despair , psychopathic rage etc  

So if I am to " know thyself " then I must have at least field tested some of these things ...

Ok so if I drink to much alcoholic drinks , I get a hangover , if I drink to many drinks on an empty stomach , I'll have a really bad hangover ....if I then decide , in that dehydrated state to test to physical endurance , I go running or whatever , then I know sure I'll eventually sweat out the alcohol , but I'll feel like shit before I do , and if I don't hydrate sufficiently, I know I'll run the risk of doing myself some physical damage .... these are systemic truths based on observations....

If I see some act of unimaginable cruelty ...I'm likely to succumb to either an empathic sadness or a defensive rage ....something like that ...

But just from experience , I personally know that I can walk around 10 miles on a few bananas , I'm pretty dehydrated and hungry by the time I get to my destination , and woe betide anyone that asks me a ' silly ' question before I've taken in a few calories , they'll get a whipping from my sharp and savage tongue .

I'm hot , I'm sweaty , I'm moody , my ability to concentrate on things other than the pre fixed motive of moving to a destination is inhibited .... 

Likewise , I can't do a 3 day sequence in a tour schedule ...it's just too much , it feels like I have voluntarily taken all the fun out of what is effectively a pretty stressful endeavour anyway ...

I get cantankerous  ...and begin to begrudge the monotony of my profession ... And I can be downright mean to customers because I'm in such a damn bad mood ! In -excusable ....so I try to make sure I avoid these sorts of inevitabilities....

It's tricky when I write , it's often misconstrued as being written from a default state , but that's seldom the truth , when I write,  it's not often  because I've sat comfortably and composed my thoughts ...it's because it's midnight and the train was cancelled and it's 3 hours until the next one , or it's four in the morning and I'm awake in the middle of the night and unable to sleep ...and feeling pretty pissed off about it , it's a Gonzo rant , an unedited , non promotional material ....and despite all the spelling errors and problems on structure that come with that I've found it to be a remarkable little diary log , that means I don't take all this pent up hostility out in my friends , my family , my customers ....which trust me , they'll tell you , it isn't always completely effective ....

But I really do take exception when some one says that they have read something I've written and based on their assessment it means that Im a misogynist or an arrogant asshole ...it's like , " hey I wrote that equivalence of a blurb of my day after a ten hour journey and the waitress was unreasonably moody and plus my girlfriend wasn't speaking to me that day " you know , there is a gradation to how things are written as well as how things are then interpreted ....but that old saying , dint judge a book by its cover , or it's blurb in this case ....say " hey I read that thing that you wrote , I thought it was offensive because of ....! Would you mind elaborating ? " 

That's much better than " hey I read that thing you wrote and now I think you are stupid and mean " 

I mean jeeez , hey man , fuck you too ....

I think I've put this physical and spiritual entity through its trials and tests and despite needing the constant minor tweaks and self reflections that all good maintenance requires .... I can withstand the accusations, the postulations , the gossip and even being gaslit by governments or girlfriends mother's ....

I guess there are hazards with being a bit of a travelling mystery , often the outsider ...the stranger .... again it goes with the territory of the travelling salesman , the roving artisan .... 

" It's better to be talked about than not " 

It sucks sometimes , it really does ....but someone's got to do it !

And testament would dictate that despite all the opinions all the speculations all the hassles and harrassments  

For all of its flaws , for all of its merits , it's potentials and it's short fallings , it's aspirations and its limitations 

....I  Am x

Definitely a work in progress ... And I couldn't profess to be any less or more, a perfectly flawed human being ....

Just like you  x

 

Tower of Song....

 W.I.P 

'Tower of Song and the weight of the world'

Standard A 1 ( 900mm x 640mm ) on 600 GSM 

Available as part of the touring ' the Arts Hole - let's AV it - exhibition and workshop series 2023 

.... There's a few copies of some of the books I've written being printed up - a dinosaur is under development for Amsterdam at the end of the month ( fuck knows how but I might have been tricked into doing a sort of stand up act - well people are going to sit and drink and laugh while I recount some trauma -interspersed with a few songs - so I'm going to need to be good and drunk for that one ) 

Fabrics - I put out a thing bit too long ago about some garments being made available - and just because we got a good deal at the printers on the  books , we've pressed ahead and done a few ' Arts Hole '  templates so I think that there will probably be t -shirts available too ...that might be limited availablity, but we'll see 

Then end of May , there's a hippy thing in France , so I'll be building yurts and catching up on how everyone is feeling about the pension age 

I suppose I should encourage you to come along to one thing or another - follow the links - buy your e ticket - book with your phone - like - share and subscribe ....

But you know what ....don't bother with any of that x

Pandemonium....

 It's a bloody weird world for sure ...I've always found the tongue in cheek style nuance of some of Bob Dylan's abstract songs comforting in the past ....

A stable home environment, a loving and lovable little pet to care for  ... Ideally some company ( though that avenue just seems frought with perils to me ) 

A good walk in a nice place , some worthwhile labours , a decent meal and a decent night's sleep ... That's the best way I've found of keeping relatively sane, even when you feel like you have inadvertently wandered into a bob Dylan scenario ... Ride it out best you can and muster some respite at the end of it ....whenever that may be or whatever that may look like .... 

Now I'm relatively easy to please and by and large I'll let a lot of things slide but at the moment I've got my heels in the ground and I do think that it's a notable observation ...

I put out a little note into the internet ether the other day - regarding a few messages that I kicked out on the 6th of march to various members of the Plymouth city council ...concerning some unresolved issues we've had between us for a decade 

In-between some much disputed trees got cut down in the middle of the night ...

Despite the lengthy petition and faux public consultation processes that the admirable local STRAW - save the trees armada way we're able to rouse the trees were indeed hastily cut down in the middle of the night in a very rash action - fortunately a last minute injunction was issued and saved several if the trees before they had completed the works 

After which , Tory councilor Bingley issued a very  public and wordy resignation letter after a rather timely vote of no confidence by the limited opposition to the motion , in his public resignation Mr Bingley made some very notable references , I shared it at the time but it seems to have been removed from social media to the point of original source - vanished ....

The local political candidates are all clamouring for a piece of validity now that this environmental campaign has gone national and trying desperately to align themselves with the ' grass roots ' uprising

I notice that the funding commission in charge of the charities allocated budgets to tackle homelessness within the south west are to have Thier expenditures investigated - and low and behold it turns out that Cornwall county council won't be running an election for a mayoress in the end after all 

Whatever is currently coalescing out of the remains of Plymouth city council has come out with an antagonistic verbal attack on the leader of the STRAW campaign ( at least you get aknowledged - they are dodging me like proper bastards - that's alright lads nothing to see here - but that's ok we are used to that these days ) 

 

Since and subsequently, the girl I was madly in love with ran off with my rabbit - leaving me holding a few loose threads ...and a lot of bloody questions ...

And not for the first time ...

My first wife and I had a rather Rocky relationship - for various reasons but our culminative resolutions to go our own ways  were always at a time when I was in dispute with Plymouth city council .... I jokingly suggested at the time that because my mother in law at the time was a bit of a nightmare and liked shiny things that Plymouth city council had gotten to her ....

A beautiful and energetic young lady I was going to sail to Portugal with - actually ended up in the sunflower women's centre after insisting I was a terrible human being even  after I managed to resolve a housing dispute that Plymouth city council had abandoned their duty of care - just a small part of a hell of a situation during the pandemic - 

Despite the fact that she literally deliberately and vindictivly tried to ruin my career ( such as it is ) in a fantastically dramatic fashion with all manner of fabulous claims ...  Leaving me quite literally flabbergasted and completely shaken    I do still wish her well ,despite ...whatever the hell happened there and in fact , for a long time I was genuinely harrowed by what my misdemeanor might have been .... It came to light of course and was suitably dispelled , but bloody hell the word narcissistic is used these days like witch in days of old ....

And last but not least ....I organize a series of media driven exhibitions with my young lady friend and set the wheels in motion to get a little bit of an edge to an otherwise tiring exhibition circuit - a little bit political but just enough sass and some nice product to be able to carry the day , even in this dire economy 

And low and behold - I stick my head above the parapet and once again - vanished - how the hell you take a man's rabbit when you leave him on his birthday .....jeeez , that's proper bob Dylan weird afternoon merging right into a blues song of its own making .

 I like to leave my door open - I think it's a nice way to live , but for two damn weeks after that scale of betrayal I was locking the door ...for about those same two weeks there seemed to be a conspicuously small black bag left by my front door ... It took a lot of strength and quite a few days to make sure there wasn't a rabbit in there ... Jeeezuz , I know the internet and bitter old mother in law's are full of great advise about all manner of things ( but all of this online advise about - red flags - narcissistic mothers - narcissistic partners - borderline personality disorders - autism - dyspraxia - psychopaths - this insistence to completely shut out all communication - what if your not dealing with a correct diagnosis what if a misguided menopausal nightmare has completely misinterpreted a scene , based on a few internet videos and a government issued checklist and suddenly started pronouncing this and that ....WITCH !!  - then you are just being fucking cruel .... And maybe diplomacy would just be a better way to go in future ...

But again I'll reiterate , despite my misgivings and the damage these liasins have had in my faith in humanity .....  All good girls, im glad to have known all three  ... But you know I do have to wonder 

In fact There is a common meme going around I think - something along the lines of " when you find out the love of your life was just a CIA operative trying to derail you from your lifelong mission to destroy the government " 

...  Is that like a legit thing ? Or are there loads of people out there all having weird bob Dylan style afternoons , evenings , weeks , months and even years as mine seem to be quite recurring - despite my genuine desire to hang up my interest in the world of digital likes political engagement and nonsense  for a chilled middle age ....

No wonder I'm fed up ...

 

I'm sure I put a date on this one somewhere - the page before says the 29th December 2022 

One of the 101 reasons ....: Addendum series * 

Roughly outlined ,there is me in a tree with a seemingly broken megaphone 

Councilor Bingley and councilor Kelly of Plymouth city council try desperately to figure out a rubix cube budget handed down by whoever / whatever hairbrained megalomaniac helmsman or woman was ' in charge ' at the time 

While a few of the ladies from the rank and file of the various sub departments of the admin body I've had the personal misfortune if dealing with - dance themselves in hen party Facebook friend fashion through the urban hell they are all over invested in through the dangerously bloated and now precarious mortgage markets 

My former legal advisor shooting rabbit poops at the entire scene with the utter contempt it deserves... 

4 months and a day or two ago - shit a lot can happen in such a short time... 

A month to go until the general elections, a month since you left with my pet rabbit - two weeks since we've spoken - my head's a wreck and the political landscape here is electric - and it seems further across the board 🤔 Stretford council  - Glastonbury- Oxford - and I know of many others where a strange kind of grass roots kickback , under various guises are now going through the legal processes of retaining rights through insistances ... 

It's definitely an interesting old time out there at the moment ...

I've been trying to put some sensible words together over the past few days ... but I've been feeling pretty shit 

But am just punch drunk ... What the fuck just happened !? 

I think it was supposed to be our anniversary in a day or two ... Jeezus .....

Roots

 It's a strange year this year of the water rabbit ... 

Plans laid down , dashed to pieces and subsequent re drafts and contingency put into action , only to have to be honed and revised add lib in accordance with the temperament of the tide ...

Such is my experience with the old saying " the best laid plans of mice and men can often go awry " that I have sort of found a stoic comfort in being constantly on the road 

The rolling stone gathers no moss ....but these days I'm quite partial to a bit of moss ,I have been wrestling internally for a decade about how unwelcome I have been made to feel in this my native land - only by the bureaucrats and the adminz , the political and the management classes ....   but the more I have travelled around the more it appears to me that the favouritism that is granted by ' the mate from the council ' is indicative , not of proficiency in any given discipline ...well other than filling in funding applications and kissing ass 

It's been due to this seemingly corrupt little landscape that over the past ten years and more I've wandered from country to country ...  Looking for the perfect place to be ..the ideal location to sit and hide while the whole world eats itself 

But , whilst in this nomadic pilgrimage, I have bumped into so many souls , fellow travellers and static natives alike ...I have previously written about the many campfire reflections with the children of the world's countries and customs - each of us searching for our place in this burgeoning international community of wreckheads and lost souls 

I drew the conclusion a long while ago , that what all this direction less , rudder less near idealistic and hedonistic pursuit is futile ...

Paradise lost isn't out there ...and all of us of various ages all running away from the injustices of our own countries is just nuts , looking for an ideal out there somewhere , in a hammock , soaked in rum on some beach somewhere with room service and a soundtrack of your choice ?? Is that really what we are all looking for ?? 

Personally I doubt it , I've tried excessive indulgence of many kinds    .... The inevitability is always a hangover , of one form or another ... 

And yet , as great as travel is for a person ... certainly as beneficial a pursuit as reading - but that is to say , that if you spend all of your time reading mills and boon novels then you probably aren't going to be as well rounded an individual as someone with a more diverse reading habit 

The same is true of travel , trust me ...if you go somewhere , somewhere you don't even speak the language and you have a credit card and a plane ticket home - ok you might have a nice time , enjoy the weather and some time off - go to that same place without the return flight home , or the credit card for emergencies ....or either , you'll have a wholly different experience, sure it might be challenging ...but it will certainly render the more rounded individual at the end of it.

There is a common reflection that is batted around by the well seasoned traveller though ...and it's sling the lines of - the problem with travelling extensively is you start to loose a sense that you belong in a single place , that any one place can encapsulate ' home ' - because there are so many beautiful places and beautiful people out there in the world , even in comfortable surroundings you nostalgically ling for the smell of the jungle , the smell of the sea , the smell of the desert ....so you are always in a mild state of longing 

So to turn another phrase ...you get the travelling bug , and so the whole conundrum begins again 

It's nice to travel - but it's nice to belong too 

It's with this in mind that this little reflection came to fruition ... 

The spoils of war are going to yield a permanent rural retreat in South West Devon - this off-grid smallholding will be the u.k base of operations from this summer 

All of the cargo containers and scattered pop up enterprises will be in house in our beautiful and bespoke education facility in Devon 

At the same time - all of our scattered interests throughout Europe and North Africa will also be condensed into our brand new 3 floors bespoke arts facility in Nieuwmarkt Amsterdam ! 

Going back to the schedule of 3 weeks of the month sailing / farming in the u.k 

One week of the month in Amsterdam 

Plus the touring schedule .... 

So keep an eye on this ...it might be, once again, quite extraordinary xx

Conversation with labour councillor in Plymouth city council

 Dated 02/03/2023

That's excellent that you recall the situation 

That's fair enough ... It was a disasterously executed situation that has been expertly mishandled 

I was just wondering , seeing as you ended up under Tara Wilkinson's management, and having offered testament to suggest that you are on a friend's basis with Tudor Evans 

Given the basis off my experiences with both PATH and Tudor Evans

You might have been able to offer some notion of insight , perhaps would want to divulge anything at this stage 

This is going to be a colossal legal proceeding and I absolutely begrudge having to go through it , but there are wrongs that must be set right

I have had a message exchange with Nabs .....however if he does remain in position after being temporarily suspended for using again 

It was John Hamblyn that backed up Clare Stevens at on courses erroneous allegations against ' controversial ' visuals within the art room 

John has been given a million pound building ...despite his valliant efforts to do everything via zoom 

So there is a gross misjustice here

Yes I know ...Tara is travelling 

Lee reece sold all his properties and moved to Thailand ....

Its all a bit of a mess isn't it

That's quite alright though 

I do appreciate you offering your insight at this stage 

As I say this is going to be an arduous task to whittle out some interesting individuals within some very serious public service positions 

I hope that you and your affiliates can find scope to offer this oversight your support

Well ...

It's an interesting old tale ..cross party and interdepartmental which is a hell of a lot of a little single concerned citizen to do all on there lonesome ....especially being subject to the trauma involved ...personally 

I am calling for a public enquiry into organizations Mal administrations that resulted in deaths , unlawful evictions , assaults but security services , frustrated environmental health complaints - the absolute degree of demonstrable stress that I went through for others behalf during the lockdowns 

I am accusing a collusive air of hostilities and disdain against my absolutely correct appraisals of ongoing situations as they stood at the time could possibly have been garnered from a previous legal battle with the council , on a professional or private altercation in the passed which resulted in catastrophic administrative failings and required parliamentary oversight in the end ( expertly valuable consultation ) 

I would appreciate cooperation from all parties for both the professional conduct and personal conduct of less meritable individuals 

Out of curiousity, who might you or I speak to ?

Ha ha ha ....oh dear I have no end of droning complaint I assure you ...it's become rather time consuming , it might have turned me into a bitter old crank 

So I am seeking allies of course , but I have a shocking mistrust 😆 

Well Tudor was requested to intervene in the original dispute way back in 2013 ...

Its since those considerations at the time that I feel somewhat .... purposefully overlooked shall we say 

Every authoritative  insistance that I have colourfully contested since , in every instance quite justifiably so ...seems to have compounded this attitude of disdain and avoidance 

It seems quite remarkable that parallel projects of mediocre management seem to be excessively supported , while my own work - be that designing buildings - painting pictures - rendering syllabus for charities - running mining extractions for precious metals - or building dinosaurs - or it seems involved in litigations ( the average value for the aforementioned tends to be valued at around £180 per hour - regardless of activity - and can be easily demonstrated ) remain in seeming contempt despite my apparently ' whispered ' notoriety for the works that I have been engaged in anytime I try to do anything in this city 

Sorry , there is a lit if ground to cover x

....or it seems engaged in litigations

I would be very happy to hear his thoughts , 

Plymouth city council are I believe still on notice for pending legal action after the esculative complaints procedure during the lockdowns

I am in the process of petitioning for summons so a friendly conversation might be prudent before we all have to give testimony ..

Dear Richard Bingley and Plymouth city council

 Sent 04/03/2023

Good Evening Richard 

Please do excuse the late hour - but it's just the nature of my day 

I am sure you are aware that I am raising multiple complaints against , well this entire network of cross party interdepartmental Facebook friends and henparty networks 

Because , well let's be fair ...there's a couple of organisations under your current remit that have taken the abundant and demonstrable piss here 

So I'm coming in to bat 

You may consider this my official complaint ( dumbfounded as you may well feign to be ) 

I don't have a great deal I'd entertain ... But if you were looking settle out of court 

It would probably be better for all parties given the current state of the city and it's tenuous condition 

I can just get on with what I do back over in the Netherlands and elsewhere , and just leave you to whatever the hell it is that you think your doing 

Regards 

Aaron ( Artby ) Valerio

Dear Tudor Evans and Plymouth City Council

 Good Evening Tudor 

We have been in contact before and I am relatively ' prolific ' I think at this stage 

I just wanted to make contact as a courtesy really 

Who knows how many strange and ethereal administrators run through the murky depths of Plymouth city council's darkened corridors 

But I think I've spoken to mist of them , I've sent that Bingley guy a version of my official complaint ( I'm doing this in an unorthodox fashion - but most of my exchanges with this funny little organisation and it's subsidiaries and cross party , interdepartmental network of Facebook friends ) 

I'm chucking all of my experiences with your organization into a job lot , rounding it up into a formal complaint - but there's not really much room to manoeuvre I feel 

In 2013 my official complaint was in hindsight  obviously quashed ...that cost me a lot of time , money and even a marriage in the end , over a couple of grand you were trying to squeeze me for in business rates 

I have easy grounds to believe the social network that would frequent the RAOB social club on north hill would be able to verify one way or another - what raised the frustrations with the community arts project that was being run at the time ....

And now , oncourse south west , in collusion with Shekinah regrettably decided to illegitimately dismiss me from both a teacher training qualification and vocational placement ( that I had written - no less ) 

I am sure most of this is well within your sphere of leadership and influence , so I'm confident that you are perfectly aware of the miscellaneous 

In closing I will just add , it may be worth reflecting in hindsight - what contributions and contracts might have been rendered had I just been left to get on with a little painting / building dinosaurs / urban farming - rer ruralization, if amid the travels that I was consequently forced to take I hadn't proven ...that in almost any city in the world I can have an easier time than I can in my home town of Plymouth 

Regards Aaron ( Artby ) Valerio

Keeping your side of the street clean

 The Original Arts Hole and the lockdown years - 

The Original Arts Hole - Tree house 2.0 

So I got back from Amsterdam in the Friday ( which was already in partial lockdown already - and some of the looks we were getting as we sat there in the floor of the airport eating our sandwiches was already a terrified and judgemental look ) 

On the Monday that great far sack of belligerent wind issued the national instruments for the lockdown 

Now at this time , my girlfriend was living in temporary accomodation due to a housing dispute with her former tenency that had effectively rendered her as ' homeless ' 

I was living in a remarkable set of circumstances - 

As I'm sure I've previously mentioned I acquired a yacht through barter to act as a housing option and logistics and delivery option for the ever diminishing trade here in the UK , it's a small vessel, a little 30" GRP  but just enough for a fall back position when needed 

A friend of mine was working as a tutor for a local charity and training provider delivering construction skills courses for the probation and rehabilitation services in the city and suggested that I pop along to volunteer a day or two 

So this I did willingly , of course that's again where things just sort of doing out of control, it's a good thing I do keep such a stringent set of records ( indeed these days everytime I have a meeting with one of these government departments you need to be recording the whole time like some kind of conspiracy theory crazy that lives in a bunker  .... I am reflecting on the caricature in eighties and nineties media representations of course  

So I'm offered a flat , 

Im offered a roommate ...a live in recovering alcoholic that is only supposed to be with me for a few weeks while he is building routines and getting back into the swing of things ( actually he was a lovely guy and despite us being stuck together for most of and certainly the height of the pandemic - we did become friends ) 

The building we are staying in  was in a dire state of repair and comprised 3 flats over 3 floors , in a converted mid terrace thing in a deplorable part of town   ( remember I do still have and am spending my weekends down in a wooded tidal estuary - I'm not a big fan of company at the best of times ) the building itself was in such a dire state of repair that quite honestly it was just squalor 

 The tenant in the ground floor , an elderly couple of wavering disposition , the woman Joyce actually died of sepsis a part of the reason that I instigated the official environmental health complaint against the landlord , the charity managing the property and the local council , after Joyce died the partner Adrian was really in a bad way - drinking heavily and going down hill , a matter that I assure you was not left unreported ....

The tenant in the top floor was a Albanian street dealer - who was just a constant pain in the arse ...

So there's me ...a volunteer a couple of days a week with a local teaching outfit , suddenly looking after a grown man prone to bouts of alcoholism and withdrawal 

The guy on the ground floor is audibly loosing his shit in a palpably melancholic state 

Every time the guy upstairs plays his music at 3 am or has a shower which then runs down the walls of your living room ...

My girlfriend is in a state of apparent and incendiary distress , under threat of eviction for not paying her water rates to the homeless charity that is providing her temporary accomodation , as a result is being rather quarrelsome

I'm writing a syllabus for the training provider that I have been volunteering for in the hope that under my own little project -operation reintegration into this crazy ass society , I might find a little point of gainful employment to hide in while the economy keeps collapsing 

They didn't have a position - straight off ....so I actually opted to render one 

Then we go into lockdown ....

And everything went thermo nuclear - imagine if you will , my experiences during this time- I assure you there are a volume of emails and recorded evidence to testament those dark years , so I'll not labour over it in this little rant 

But the pint I am so circuitously getting around to making is 

How do you keep your shit together under such circumstances - 

Quite honestly, gardening and painting made quite the difference amid that little forced social dynamic.

The middle flat of the 3 we had no ground floor access , but we did have a fire escape , it was no mean feat acquiring all of the plants and things that were needed but over a very short time , just so I could feel like I was sitting in a treehouse while I was having my little cigarettes amongst all of that insanity , maintaining what I could of my chill , before the next drama erupted 

I know everyone suffered during those years ...some , more than others 

So a scoff at the idea of mindfulness courses being delivered in seminar style , of positivity practices online via zoom and all the rest of it ....

Its amazing what a person can do , and yet receive zero credit for .... I have become very much accustomed to being completely unappreciated in my time , for some people that would be enough to deter any further course of action 

But when you have some how managed to turn what most would consider to be a mild ADHD condition into a viable vocation ....then what's a little PTSD in the mix