Dear Nudge community builders , Plymouth city council all subsidiaries and affilliates

 Hello 👋 

I doubt I should have to introduce myself , seeing as I have been involved in official complaints procedures with most of you on and off for a decade 

But I suppose should you wish to feign ignorance of the Numerous legal disputes I have been dragged into with you people or perhaps insist that the aggressively dismissive attitude that seems to be adopted as standard procedure any time I try to raise point , offer suggestion or Raise valid critique is simply coincidental , for the sake of argument and in .....well let's make this a public response to your recent Facebook advertisement for calls for collaboration i.e the clipper on Union Street ...

About me ....

The Arts Hole international pop up initiative ..

Well , I'm a bit like you really ... I have a habit of taking on grubby old run down real estate and transforming them into desirable gallery / commercial / residential spaces, I have a proven track record of taking on  near derelict properties in emaciated parts of town , across continental Europe and even further afield and quite by accident implementing desirable and utilisable spaces for community engagement and academic faculty support .....

How far along am I with my business 

Ha ha ha ...well veteran in a forced state if perpetual transience, each exhibition has a different name and is in a different city ... 

 As you should certainly be aware , I have been responsible for developing and delivering a creative core based syllabus at one of the local training facilities ....just down the road from you , as part of the probation and rehabilitation outreach services . Of which I'm sure I don't have to emphasise are exceptionally pertinent within this particular aspect of the urban landscape 

I have broached the subject with yourselves on numerous occasions , and made the proposal that the local charity and training provider that I am sub contracted to ... Could indeed make use of a potential retail position .....the students within our key and indeed target demographic are individuals that are making categorical efforts to improve their quality of life and in many cases even attempt to reintegrate into a society that systematically assaulted them with 15 years of ideological austerity 

The pioneering Art aspect that I have developed for this local delivery demonstrates the positive influence that the creative tendency not just limited to expression of the ' Arts ' can have. I personally begrudge the incessant comodification of almost every human experience in this esculating age of madness however , in just the short time that I get to work with the students that are assigned to me there is a real and demonstrable untapped talent and potential ...that which should be both encouraged and applauded ! No better way would be for the local community builders to offer an exhibition opportunity in a venture such as your own ....

Again I will reiterate that shouldn't be news to you , 

Why do I think that the clipper would be good for me ....

Ha ha ha ...pass 

No seriously, again as I am sure you are aware, I developed what was coined at the time as ' the Valerio institute for alternative learning ' up in the north of the city about a decade ago .....a grubby old factory that I took in and turned into a bespoke space without grant, subsidy or loan, ....suffice to say I had a falling out with the local authority ( not an unusual occurrence for many small businesses in the city ) stood my ground , finished the project which culminated in an architectural showcase the likes of which has bit been rivaled in the city ....but quite by chance , the greenalize thing materialised a few months later !!!, In the end I told them to get stuffed, the judiciary backed the proclamation and I went on my merry way . A few years after this debacle as far as my understanding goes a couple of ex community connections employees basically did a. Gov backed version of my original little enterprise ...as you can imagine I took quite a personal offense to this ....

You paid nigh on ten grand for a mural .....

Your funding and seemingly in bed relationship with the council and it's basket case of estate agent affilliates and questionable sponsors 

So why do I think the clipper offering a collaborative effort, by way of making available space to encompass display and public engagement options for our recently qualified and or exceptional students ...on a nice neat 6 - 12 week rotation ....

Well I suppose you could refuse to offer collaborative support to this enterprise ....again ! 

But that does not seem to be in keeping with pretty much all of your published materials ? And self ascribed mission statements ? Funding criteria ? 

Well I suppose if nothing else , despite all the aforementioned questionable circumstances ....it would give me something positive to say about you and your organizational efforts after all ....

How do I feel that I might contribute to your mission and local community ....

I can do three times what you do on a fraction of the budget .....

For the last two years I have been working in the reform services , within the neighborhood that you operate ....even during the height of the imposed lockdowns - fighting the council to get people re housed ' lodging environmental health complaints - battling social services and fighting with my own manager insisting we keep the door open as the legislation at the time did allow for education and training facilities to have the option if remaining open ( even though none of the other academic facilities within the city were willing to take that risk ) my argument being that the duration if the lockdown was starting to really negatively effect people's mental health , and that people that were being forced to live together in the awful tennament style lodgings that make up well over half of this cities housing stock .....especially within this cluttered  part of the city ! We're better off coming for a little socially distanced , socially interactive respite than remaining in these festering pits of damp, despair , forced co habitation ! 

During my spare time I managed to convert a 3 story fire escape ( my roommates only available outside space in the horrible urban scene we were  confined to ) into a kind if improvised hanging garden and pine forest, again inadvertantly kicking off several little garden and green space initiatives 

 Being so fed up with the city and the idea that citing myself next to a main thoroughfare staring at traffic and an economically emaciated city scape and populace was any kind of opportunity to be had ...

So once again after a lengthy and completely unnecessary legal free for all with my old mates ....the faceless bureau rats that seem to run the world , I moved back out to the rural fringes 

....in the last I don't know .   A little over a year I guess I have seen multiple sets of students through to completion of the course materials , delivered in parallel with the general conscious mindfulness and positive practices we have seen individuals flourish , literally flourish, in a time when the country is suffering such hardships as to be historically influential ! Mining  ...well painting en plein air , finding rocks , turning those rock's into paints , exploring out the sources of those rock's ....again demonstrating the fundamental necessity to get out of the urban environment with all its digital entrapments and to get out into the 3 dimensional world with the 3 Dimensional people and effect the change in the world that is so sorely needed in this age of ours 

All of this the basic mainstay of the basic intrigues that have somehow rendered my existence ' commercially viable ' ....even it seems without the streams of available funding that are often hoodwinked by mediocrity before my mad little enterprise even gets a look in .....

I used to prefer to operate in as fiercely independent a persona as I could muster ...and to be fair that scale of bravado can be useful when you are trailblazing something in a city you don't know in a country you are not familiar with with a language you don't speak .... there is a definite sense of self determination on relying solely on the trade you can muster from the products that you render ....but it can be infuriating observing thousands of pounds being rolled out in these bribe funding schemes for the bin delivery of half an idea ....

collaboration is proven to be the more fruitful endeavour over competition and as such I do try to embrace this more and more these days .

My contact details.....

Well you know ....I'm just down the road on the Thursday and Friday ....generally teaching people to paint or petitioning the council to support the planting of a tree over the implementation of another parking space or student bedsit , or indeed insisting that they destroy the 30% of the degenerate aspect of the grotty housing stock they insist on keeping in circulation ! 

Otherwise I'm out in the countryside , Amsterdam for about a week every 6 - 8 weeks plus the odd sporadic excursion to sunnier climes for more than mere self gratification and indulgent recreationalism ....

Would I like to collaborate ? 

Oh dear , well the proof is in the pudding as they say ....

Would I like to collaborate .....well we find ourselves in a bit of a standoff 

So I will be honest ...I've no patience to suffer a fool and I am genuinely concerned that a great deal of the funding structures that exist are wholly corralling and in effect censoring, I worry that a few well placed bribes kicked out as ' funding support ' from Dido Harding's account , just muddies the water of this already very muddy pond, like why have we got money for all if these bloody CIC enterprise dance troupes and art groups but the NHS funding model is a mess and the roads look like Pompeii , I worry that these greasy wheels are being used to usher in favourable relationships in lieu of a righteous indignation ....are we just keeping the middle classes busy with a load of coffee morning nonesense while the integral infrastructure of the country is being sold off for scrap .....   So, Yes I would like to collaborate with a few of the actual grassroots authentic proactive individuals and organizations that do have a genuine interest in improving the aesthetic appearance and integral functionality of this city and outlying region we all co habit 

I would /could just go and petition a belligerent authority that would only offer me dead ears anyway , and well given my experiences in this particular city against the comparible successes of well pretty much every other city I have ever  made camp....on an international scale I refer to this place as a societal equivalent of a bear trap  ...but we've sewn up all routes of possible alternative entrepreneurial expression so what recourse can there be ?

...and besides I  think it'll be interesting to see how this goes .....

I look forward to hearing your thoughts on these or related matters 

pppfffttt personal advertising / arrempting to rattify and reason 20 years of esculating dissent

 I was recently asked in an interview about my artists bio .... 

do I even have one ? .... jeeezus hundereds of em , I have been doing this mad stint of accidentially boderline controversial shit for over 20 years now , I have been the proprieter of just as many gallery spaces and have written all manner of gibberish in all manner of languages ... for all of them ! 

the original Bio : bravado really ! it had to be I was basically field testing one of the first pop up principles ... ever !! I had a tiny space in a tiny seaside village, that through a series of forcefully bent loopholes I managed to get use of for a little pop up gallery, so I set to work and filled the thing , from cheerful seaside daubs - to what has evolved into the ' signature series ' of watercolour works ( one of the things I am ' best known ' for ) a little something for everybody , and indeed anybody .... 

seething confrontations and foreign adventures all embodied in the work I embellished on the property I was using ' formed a ' brand ' the arts hole , (whch I swiftly rendered as an original and copyrighted piece of original artwork : which is now the ' logo ' )  ..... blah blah blah ,'' quite honestly when people would people would wander in , initially I confessed to being the producer of all of the work present, but this used to confound the ' usual art buyer ' .... so eventually I moved to explaining different styles away under different guises, my first website , I think that was ' theartshole.co.uk ' was produced by a friend of mine , and it was great we took the piratical / smuggler type history of the place and really rolled it into the brand , and the website looked really nice and was full of written content ... I do still have the hardcopy notes somewhere and so will maybe oneday get around to putting that original format up somewhere .. just for prosterity !!? 

so Artsist satements a plenty ... and descriptions and values ascribed to all !

then I wanted to refit a shitty old wharehouse on the edge of Plymouth city to opperate as an art gallery and architectural showcase ... I think at this stage we took down the old website and redid the whole nline thing ... I think this was ' Art By Valerio .com ' and this was a hell of a thing , there were write ups for the ' pop up gallery ' there was a running commentary on the progress of the workshop and workspaces , we did write ups for all of the psudonymns and all of the work styles , the design portfolio ... its was huge and the artists state ment ... around this time was about rejueneating the decaying urban landscape in order to make it economically viable for a more sustainable and progressive future ... and I ended up in an 18 month legal battle , again with plenty of written content ! 

scroll on a few years and I threw some stuff at the royal academy summer exhibition , I carried it up on the train , enormous and pre glazed as it needed to be ... wrote a very compelling truth about the work and my process , only to have one piece stolen and the other refused ! later I sent them some crap ... some real crap and of course they displayed it without question ??!! 

I got myself a little yacht and filled it with paintings and had a go at sailing around the southwest again just running out the format for the pop up initiative, really the boat was too small , and I too inexperienced a sailor ... initially at least , so it was hard going in the little westerly 22 

myself and my first wife decided that Amsterdam held far better prospects for us , than these continual unecessary trials in the completely unforgiving and hostile environment that the U.K had become 

The Arts Hole International Pop up initiative beame a legitimate thing , I ran the gallery in much the same way as I had previously , I was in an antikraak property , i was subletting from two studemts ? I doubt I had a relevent permission to trade from a residential property ? but I needed an income .... so I converted the groundfloor into a little gallery and workshop, it was a lot of fun , I had totally lost fiath in the idea that a website , or etsy or any of that rubbish was going to be better at relaying product , than actual line of sight product procuring 3 dimensional individuals, and was mainly relying on the blog and funnily enough , online dating platforms as a reasonable and rather lucrative means of free online advertising , so just stuck with that 

Then the U.K ... well David Cameron did a very stupid thing ! ( now lets just put this flat and straight!  I am / was pro remain in the union !!?? that does not outright state ... that I approve of the Union ..in its present format ) 

my u.k interests ( cargo containners full of original handrendered and heartfeltly crafted items of artwork and sentiment)  lost a great deal of value .... my wife buggered off to india ..... and ironically enough ( and yes I can see the hmour in it ) the Gallery space in Amsterdam was squatted by refugees , while I was back in the u.k doing a build a dinosaur workshop for children in london ! .... that had had been prebooked prior to brexit , and was now worth a hell of a lot less because of brexit .... 

I did a couple of little pop ups across the u.k and europe, under the guise of '' Brexit Refugee'' before heaing back to the u.k , swapping a painting for a 10 meter yacht, and resuming ' The never ending tour ' 

then In light of all of the mad speculative legislation that surrounding the brexit fiasco , I went and gave heart to a beautiful Slovakian Girl that was living here in the u.k ..... just , well maybe not just , to see how this unfurling ....what a nightmare !! 

I took on another pop up space in the city of plymouth and declared war on the authorities that had not only given me such a hard time prior to my departure .. but were also , presumanly the same administrative block that were ushering in this Brexit nonesense !! 

between spraypainting the city at night and sneaking away to weeklong art expeditions in order to maintain , this crazy little brand that I have managed to cobble together , which has in the face of every adverity I have had to encounter , one way or another has always been my saving grace ... the wife walks out , you find yourself penniless in a country where you dont know anyone ? paint something ... I have always got a swifter return on that than sending out c.v's for weeks 

god only knows how .... but just prior to the lockdown I was in a bizzarre situation, and that is what has led me to the current set of circumstances ! 

..... I should have made a run for prtugal !!!  '

The Arts Hole on a mission

 Painting really can be a pain in the ass , so every now and again it's good and indeed more often than not necessary , to take a year off from your usual pursuits to fight the government .....especially this government 🤬

As part of my lockdown pastimes I seem to have inadvertently ended up doing a couple of noteworthy things 

Get in touch or pop by the workshop at 24 Stonehouse street in Plymouth to find out more or get involved X 

The Narcisist and the Empath

Gosh , the internet has fallen rather short of its original promised potential hasn't it !

Buzz words and mob mentality directed my market driven Analytica, and I am sitting here considering these two ' buzzwords ' in particular at length, relative isolation from this current quarantine leaves ample room for adequate self reflection !

Self Reflection , its actually something of an inherent tangent to my given vocation - sat alone for hours on end, quietly rendering, the thought processes involved , much like the images I render tend to swirl and undulate around some common areas. As I reflect on the blank page that was , the lines rendered so far and the vague direction that path to an idealized completion might take , the person rendering it ….. for whom ….. and of course why ?

It has occurred to me recently based on the accusations of some crazy ex's - that maybe all art is a form of narcissism , after all, what kind of self aggrandizing arrogance would assume , that the thing that I feel the creative tendency to manifest - is worth doing at all ? are my thought processes , my notions so well formed that they presented to the public as ' worthwhile ' ….. to not only be so self impressed and important to not only render a thing and want other people to like it , even buy it , and somehow offer some external validation for my own human condition and all of the crushing self doubts that go with it - by and the sorry desire to be accepted , even recognized by a society that by and large …. I pathologically loathe !!

I guess it can easily be construed as a kind of narcissism - if you take any of the ' internet articles that have clearly been written by embittered women - for embittered women ' as a golden truth , on the same peg though - Art not only a vehicle for shameless self promotion - is a tried and tested means of connecting, of communicating - a great way to note . define and enact empathic tendency

So it really has made me quite cross ! and in many ways still does , when the shamelessly uninformed make rash judgements and decisions based on poor research or a single life perspective and somehow try to apply it as a metric standard to the world based on only that !

We live in a weird time, on the back of some pretty weird precedents , of fake news and propaganda - divisive ideals , in boris johnsons Brexit Britain in Donald trumps age of the charlatan , it can be hard to know for certain which way is up ! ( personally I have never been that keen to jump on the back of another mans cause - jeez I have enough of my own )

I see a lot of broken hearts these days , and some of them … too many of them just seem to remain broken, and it does seem to me to be quite a common factor or dynamic - the girl based on her internet research and a couple of episodes of Jeremy kyle believes she has ascertained the permanent position of ' empath ' or ' lightworker ' or some such other new age bullshit ! and the guy …. well the guy is often typecast as the overbearing narcissist ( from my personal experience anyway ) - and it really does grind my gears- this Nazi style pigeon holing

So Ladies , I am writing this little bit here just for you x

Ever shave your legs ?
vie for jewellery  ?
pluck your eyebrows ?
make up ?
dress up ?
selfie ?

suddenly decided that maintaining your closed little version of happy happy joy joy - keeping your peace , was a more cereberlly attuned means of getting by in a society of this size , by simply cutting out that which might contravene your happy place …. instead of maintaining engagement in discussion, debate and reasoning - within even a hostile environment such as we have built for ourselves

then you my dear are a fucking narcissist !!! - or at least exhibit multiple symptoms of the condition !

just because you well up over little things during your difficult time of the month does not make you a fucking empath !! in just the same way that a penchant for the creative tendencies are not categorical indications of narcissi

These are both temporary states ! for a well rounded and constantly evolving human entity to be prone too

a perfectly flawed human being with aspiration enough to attempt to be better !!!!

for the sake of my difficult middle class ex's that have really missed the point - why don't you take another fucking vacation and think about that sweetheart x  

Censored by the State - but dont think twice its alright !

getting back to this …...


So I have been witness, and even party too some strange times over the course of my short little life time

but it really just takes a few dodgy elections , a rigged referendum , … well two of them I guess , ( plus a series of nonsensical subsequent occurrences ….. a Brexit … a Donald Trump presidency, …. a ...well, I don't even know what to call the so called administration of this so called country at the moment -  from tony blair to Gordon brown to Cameron to thatcher … er I mean may , and now we have Boris

Boris who is now ' taking back control ' of this whole ramshackle shit show that is the ' Covid 19  Pandemic ' !!!

You Know I got back here on the Friday the 13th of March - ever increasingly reluctantly I assure you,  I think that by the Monday , Old Boris had abandoned his whole herd immunity philosophy - and decided that in order to save the NHS , what we all had to do was stay at home, unless absolutely necessary

now that dosent sound so bad right ? we all get a bit of time off … we can chill out at home and do a bit of gardening ….. sit around for grayons art club , drink lots of tea , maybe even spend a little extra time with the kids , sounds alright for sure …..

and if it was optional , then yes it would have been a sufferable nightmare , locked down for the greater good with your immediate nearest and dearest , in your little English country garden …. how nice , how quintessentially british !!

but the dirty truth , as most of the people in this country that actually spend their time in the environment in which they live , and have not yet been completely brain deaded by years of predictable television ' programming ' - and phone screen hypnotization - the perpetual ' boredom breaker ' the virtual masturbation that is rendering an entire generation of would be, and sorely needed revolutionaries … into pokemon go chasing - clickbait consuming over urbanized retards with extra ordinary video game proficiencies

Jeezus fucking wept !!!

who was I meant to be having a go at with this ….??!!

Oh yes Plymouth , Plymouth the city scape that looks like the fall of the soviet union !! this place is an utter joke - every bit of it really , and its a sad shame !!

I have been engaged in and even involved in  the spearheading of a few politically active movements over the past decade or so, and with my transient ' art show ' I have managed to find myself on various social plateau's all around the world , so there is a basis of truth when I render my skewed little perspective ….

and Plymouth , my little Darling …. you are a piece of shit !!

I have recently begun to refer to this place as the arse hole corner of Boris Johnsons Brexit Britain In Donald Trumps age of the Charlatan , and you know having been forced to remain here , festering , under lockdown for the past few months , it has really compounded my position on the matter !!!

At the End of 2019 I was going through yet another little work induced breakdown ( happens a lot :) )  having spent about a year fighting with the local authority about the availability of suitable social backed housing schemes and basic provision - through a direct action ! of course while simultaneously maintaining the usual body of art and design works - I was hoping to sail away to Portugal in the autumn due to my illicit experiences here in this utterly hostile environment - I was just a little too burnt out for the trip , so I figured that I would settle for the interim and re - evaluate in the spring !

now I have been expressly interested in the destruction of the social provision in this country through the mismanagement of successive fools and liars - and so I thought I would have a punt at just testing the social safety net in this country -

I began volunteering with a local  charity that is well established in the area in the field of , mental health issues and rehabilitation - offering various training programmes for individuals with complex needs and backgrounds -

I applied for the short term social supports that most people are ' entitled ' - I approached Plymouth City Council with my plight - and through network of agencies managed to find a viable accommodation option - ha ha ha oh dear !! well I say a viable accommodation option - I was offered a two bedroom flat in a bad neighbourhood in the city centre - an alcholic and his wife in the ground floor flat - a mad Albanain Guy on the Top Floor flat with a history of issues

the building is rotting into the ground and the weather comes in through the roof and various holes in the walls - the two bedroom flat comes equipped with its own ' recovering alcoholic ' in room 2

and its all supposed to be fine because its a maximum stay of 3 months as ' temporary accommodation ' while various agencies are looking at facilitating us into our own accommodations and back into our own lives ……???

8 months now !!! I have been complaining in writing and via the phone , I have dropped into offices and even presented my own survey on the property to no less than 5 different agencies - nothing !! Path - useless !! Plymouths only homelessness prevention charity/ company ?? has threatened more people than I can count with eviction ( eviction from rough sleeping prevention housing - as previously mentioned , documentable squalor ) despite full allocation of housing benefit being received ???  these people are being instructed to pay a top up ? a weekly top up out of the state benefit that '' the government deems the minimum amount a person should be required to live on '' - under threat of eviction !! ?? this is an utter disgrace - not only does this ensure a private landlord safety net in the event of negligence or miscare , but it also artificially inflates the lower end of SUITABLE available accommodation provisions within the city for most of the rental market !!! This Needs To Be Scritinized !!!

I have postulated that there is obviously a racket here in this poxy city that is furthest away from the centre of capitol and commerce - but equal in its seedy corruption and underhand methods !

the game is , if you are a private landlord ,ideally one of those wally's that was sold a ' buy to let ' during that whole scam ! and you cant afford the maintenance on your piece of shit ' investment ' - and or are struggling to let it out in the competitive ' luxury student accommodation ' market ….

then kick it over to social housing - the maximum allocation that the .Gov will pay in housing benefit will easily keep you going ,'' these people are all mental or on drugs any way so they will either not care or fuck it up anyway   '' - this is the facilitation to rehabilitation and the right Path - the Plymouths access to housing !! this ' charity ' that is also a limited company … has had numerous directors since its inception since 1995 - and works closely with the so called council of these parts ( the same council that covers the costs of mount Edgecumbe country park - is covering the company ' British Land ' even though they have been consigned huge swathes of the city - only to be going broke any way !!)

I saw a headline in the local paper the other day  '' Please Save Our City '' a plea from the commercial and social aspects of the city to the laughable central government - for help through these tough times

don't you get it …. you have been fucked like the whore that you are !! British land / Serco / G4S … all of this that has sprung up over the past little while … all of it questionable , all of it dubious … all of it share holder orientated … all with huge government contracts !! and its all gone to shit on private tender !!!

but never mind any of that , old Tudor Evans has gone and built his box - and apparently they have a mammoth and some models that used to hang off the front of slave ships - and the university is just over the road , so they can now at least offer these poor mind fucked - bright eyed graduates , high flying positions in the attraction that no one comes to see ….and as for the Mayflower 400 - fuck you , there was a reason that the ship left this wretched place !!! and it stands to reason that if she were in the harbour now ??

we could have had urban gardens , housing co operatives , urban regeneration - community orientated investments - neighbourhood production and engagement schemes - instead what do we have - some student bedsits - a ' museum ' - a university ( the cost for attendance by the way !!! ) the drake circus mall - the ' barcode ' a statue of a woman on royal parade that has been so weighed down by this unending age of austerity that she is almost doubled over and attempting to steady herself with one hand !!

and We cant say that I haven't tried, in the short bursts of utter frustration that I find myself in in this , the arse hole corner of Boris Johnsosn Brexit Britain in Donald Trumps age of the utter Charlatan , every time I return here , its just more and more of the same !!  ten yeas ago I went to war with this particular authority - all I was trying to do was test an architectural design idea and a few little exhibitions - I managed it in the end , but had a year and a half legal fight with some utterly incompetent administrators in the authority and decided I would be better off in Amsterdam - it cost me a great deal of trouble - and even my first marriage , but I was happy to just cut my losses and run - although at the time there was a very similar case taking place between a guy that had appeared on the t.v show dragons den ! and Plymouth city council no less … in the end I believe he was awarded a fair amount in compensations for his unfortunate experience with a very corrupt and underhand organization , that often tries to hide its ruthelessness, as simple administrative error !!! … I was feeling a little more humanitarian than that , and was more than happy to just be rid of dealing with the organization that had no money ! and I wonder if I had hit these pieces of shit there and then for compensation …. if their attitude towards me since might have been different and instead of constantly trying to cover for their previous ' mistakes ' they just acknowledged it and collaborated past it

tens years since … ten years of political nonsense . homes under the hammer and stags estate agents

In Amsterdam for a while the exhibition's title was ' Brexit Refugee ' - and of course in hindsight  it was worthy of the controversy it caused me ! I am sure that I saw a real hit from the populist markets back home !

but I find myself  back here again ,literally trapped this time !! and I have to wonder , under these current circumstances , just another chapter in this unwinding series of circumstance - with art as my only means of defence -

am I being persecuted here ? is this really just a haphazard series of ' bad luck ' scenarios in this ridiculously hostile environment ?? … I thought that If I worked hard , I was supposed to get ahead ! if I was innovative and entrepreneurial and tenacious , then eventually all the hard work is supposed to pay off right ?

well apparently not ,

maybe this country is just a hostile environment now - a political class - a millionaires class - an upper middle class - a middle class -  a working class ….a benefits class..... and me, the rebellious class ??

but maybe , just maybe … I have accidentally slid myself into a position of  public influence … and just maybe I have been , mad enough / clever enough and articulate enough to call some pieces of shit out on their game at some crucial junctures !

maybe somewhere along my travels  I fucked someone's daughter and they just got moody about the hippy influence I had on their genetic spillage  ??

maybe that weird Dominic cummings creature is trying to throw  some Jacobs ladder inspired Analytica at me ??

but what ever the reason and I am not the only one being hit hard for it !